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Monday, March 30, 2009
el stupido.
i made myself vulnerable to you, and i swore to myself i would never again after that inncident with someone else, but i did, i got blind and stupid. 

but the thing is i did, and i never thought twice about what i was doing.

it never occured to me, that you could be so heartless. 

that you could take the box i offered to you, looked in it, and it was as if you saw something horrific, stomped on it, and returned it. it broke me, but you'll never know how much. you just haven't realised how fragile a girl's feelings actually are. but when you do, i pray for the next girl that you don't hurt her like you did me.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:39 PM

Sunday, March 29, 2009
my name.

kudos to Sel for looking up my name in the Urban Dictionary..

click here to see what it says (:

and look for yours too!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:46 PM

nonsense ;)
What color/kind of socks are you wearing?
[ ] Red = loud
[ ] Green = stupid
[x] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[ ] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[ ] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweaty
[ ] Other = hot
[ ] White = sexy

What kind of pants are you wearing?
[x]Shorts = cutie
[ ]Skirt/skort = skank
[ ]Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ]Tight jeans = scene kid
[ ]Ripped jeans = emo
[ ]Cammo = cage fighter
[ ]Jeans = prep
[ ]Pajamas = pimp
[ ]Cargo = clown
[ ]Sweats = athlete
[ ]Boxers = brat
[ ]Booty shorts = female
[ ]Capris = Gangster
[ ]Nothing = hoe
[ ]Dickies = weirdo
[ ]Bikini bottoms = tiki girl
[ ]Other = sex addict

What is your natural hair color?
[ ]Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ]Blonde = with a broken heart
[ ]Black = with a sexy smile
[x]Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ]Red = that likes to have fun
[ ]Brown = who loves to be different
[ ]Dirty blonde= with a nice ass
[ ]Bald = with herpes

Pick the month you were born on:
[ ]1 = who ate
[ ]2 = who needed
[ ]3 = who killed
[ ]4 = who shot
[ ]5 = who killed
[x]6 = who smoked with
[ ]7 = who banged
[ ]8 = who ran shirtless with
[ ]9 = who got stabbed horribly by
[ ]10 = who cuddled with
[ ]]11 = who slept with
[ ]12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:
[ ]01 = the kool-aid man
[ ]02 = a dog
[ ]03 = a shoe
[ ]04 = a toothbrush
[ ]05 = Santa Claus
[ ]06 = The Trojan man
[ ]07 = Barny the dinosaur
[ ]08 = a prostitute
[ ]09 = a porn star
[ ]10 = a bag of weed
[ ]11 = my lover
[ ]12 = a glass of milk
[x]13 = a horse
[ ]14 = a lesbian
[ ]15 = a stripper
[ ]16 = a pickle
[ ]17 = a jew
[ ]18 = a homo
[ ]19 = an orange
[ ]20 = my mom
[ ]21 = a homeless guy
[ ]22 = a whore
[ ]23 = my crush
[ ]24 = an easter egg
[ ]25 = a jar of honey
[ ]26 = a condom
[ ]27 = a bowl of cereal
[ ]28 = a french fry
[ ]29 = your dealer
[ ] 30 = Paris Hilton
[ ]31 = your grandma

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing
[ ] White = because I love marijuana
[x]Black = because I'm sexy as hell
[ ]Pink = Because the lil people told me to
[ ]Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ]Red = because I'm a pimp and you're jealous
[ ]Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[ ]Purple = because I'm gay
[ ]Gray = because I got dared
[ ]Other = because that's how I roll
[ ]Green = because I'm good in bed
[ ]Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ]Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[ ]Brown = because I had to
[ ]Shirtless = because I've got abs

I'm a freaky cutie with a hot boyfriend who smoked with a horse because I'm sexy as hell! 

-a cutie with a hot boyfriend because i'm sexy as hell (;
cut the crap out and that's what you get.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:30 PM

Saturday, March 28, 2009
It hurts.
Who knew you could hurt me this much.
and what more,
You're so oblivious to the pain you've caused.
If only you knew. 
If only..

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:33 PM

Friday, March 27, 2009
ehehehehehe .









T   R   Y   !

oh yeahhh ;D

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:31 PM

This is it.
It is, my last day at Taylor's has arrived..

Well the whole class practically went into shock when Char very nicely announced it to the world. THANK YOU!! but yeahh, i guess it kinda sucks, cause i really do like the people in my class. Come on, everyone knows HH1 is the most awesome :D I LOVE YOU ALLLL!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, in a way i guess the pro's of leaving this, is that my stress levels are down.. i think if i had stayed in SAM i'd be dead by mid year ;p .no, seriously. good luck to all of youu, yeahh? ;D

No tears, yet. from anyone. YAY! accomplishment? maybe.. maybe..

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

1:57 PM

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as you're __% innocent. 

01. Smoked
02. Drank alcohol.
03. Cried when someone died.
04. Been drunk.
05. Had sex.
06. Been to a concert.
07. Gotten/given a hand job.
08. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
09. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.


11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.


21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done drugs.


31. Played strip poker/darts/pool.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Made beans.
40. Been in love.


41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.


51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Made spicy beans.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed Goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.


61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.


71. Been caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.


81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months. 
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore 


91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Left a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.

Final score: 57%

AHAHAHAH!!! At least its more than half ;)

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:14 AM

Saturday, March 21, 2009
Dear Jarren,
I don't really know how to tell you this, you're a leprechaun. I think I realized it when you put cuffs on me in your closet and I saw you sit on my boyfriend. I'm sure you're senile enough to understand that I get turned on only by garbage men. I'm returning your toe ring to you, but I'll keep your glass eye as a memory. You should also know that I never will forget that night and you ruined my attempts at another world war.

Best of luck on the sex change,

Here's how you do it:
Dear (someone you recently talked to),
I don't really know how to tell you this,(1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning your (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that (10) and (11).


1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black - Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my butt
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost -High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:34 PM

87% - no wayyy.
The HAPPY tag.

[] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend. - not yet, soon babes. soon ;)
[x] You have your own laptop
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player
[] Your parents are still together
[x] You have a best friend
[x] There is a swimming pool in your backyard

T 0 T A L: 5

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] hang out with friends more than once a week
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room
[x] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] you NEVER cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.

T 0 T A L: 11

[x] You have over 50 friends on myspace/facebook
[x] You have pictures on myspace./facebook
[x] Your parents let you have a myspace/facebook
[x] You get allowance
[x] You collect something normal
[ ] You look forward to going to work / college / school.
[x] You don’t wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school/college

T 0 T A L: 19

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don’t fight with your mom
[ ] You are happy with your appearance 
[ ] You have never gotten a failing grade on your report card - are you kidding me?
[x] You have friends

T 0 T A L: 21

[x] you know what’s going on in the world.
[x] You care about many people.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own/owned a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You don’t have many enemies
[x] You are a generally nice person

T O T A L : 29

Take the your total number and multiply it by 3.
Then post this as ''I am _% happy''.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:24 PM

Complete the following questions to find out just how mean you are.

[x] I think I'm gonna have a high score on this.
[x] I don't talk to one or both of my parents that much.
[x] I have said horrible things to someone's face.
[x] I give people dirty looks a lot.
[x]I've been known to have an attitude.

[x] I took heads off dolls or action figures when I was little.
[x ]I have destroyed something valuable on purpose.
[ ] Most people are stupid
[x] I have thrown temper tantrums.
[x] I've been called a bitch.
Total so far:9

[x] I get mad easily.
[ ] I have no clue when I'm being mean.
[x] Sometimes I order people around.
[ ] I am known as a bad influence by some parents.
[x] I've argued with a teacher
Total so far: 12

[x] I could honestly care less about school
[x] I love messing around with people’s heads
[x] I love to joke around
[ ] I yell daily
Total so far: 15

[x] I seem to always be in an argument with someone.
[ ] I don't like smiling but do anyways.
[x] I know at least 3 people I would like to kick the heck out of.
[x] I get annoyed easily
[x] I hate a lot of people
[ ] I say bad words A LOT - not anymore :D
Total so far:19


"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:19 PM

Friday, March 20, 2009
Mark which things you have done, then calculate your score by counting the number of questions you marked. This test is out of 100 questions which means that the number you get as your score is also your percentage. Re-post as "I do stupid things __% of the time."

1. [ ] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out
2. [ ] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails
3. [ ] Broken a chair by leaning back in it 
4. [x ] Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking
5. [x] Choked on your own spit while you were talking
6. []Had people tell you that you are blonde when you're not, or had people tell you that your blonde highlights are going to your head
7. [x] Been caught staring at your crush by your crush
8. [x] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realized it was in your hand
9. [x] Tried to push open a door that said pull
10.[x]Tried to pull open a door that said push

Running total: 6

11. [ ] Have actually believed someone when they said that they knew how to make a love-potion
12. [x] Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else
13. [x] Have tripped and fallen UP the stairs
14. [ ] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave
15. [x] Have gotten gum stuck in your hair
16. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble
17. [x] Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it (or something similar)
18. [x] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard
19. [x] Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name
20. [x] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot

Running total: 14

21. [x] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on
22. [x] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle
23. [x] Have run into a closed door
25. [x] Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it
26. [x] It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke
27. [] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer
28. []Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan
29. [x]Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk
30. [ ] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clock

Running total: 20

31. [] After someone told you that there was gum on the ground, you stepped in it
32. [x] Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside
33. [x] Have ever walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else
34. [ ] Ever been kicked out of a grocery store/off their property
35. [x] Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot
36. [x] Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on
37. [x] Wondered why something wasn't working then realized it wasn't plugged in
38. [ ] Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard
39. [x] Walked into a pole
40. [x] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someones shoes by accident

Running total: 27

41. [x] Put your shirt on backwards/inside-out without realizing it then left your house
42. [ ] Tried to take a picture of someone's eye with the flash on
43. [x] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small
44. [ ] Walked out of the bathroom with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realizing it
45. [x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it is was that you were going to do
46. [x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it
47. [x] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up
48. [x] Have poked yourself in the eye
49. [ ] Have gotten in the shower with your socks still on
50. [ ] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair

Running total: 33

51. [x] Have done enough stupid things to make a test
52. [x] Have accidentally stabbed yourself with a pencil
53. [x] Have sung the wrong verse to a song without realizing it
54. [x] Have given an odd answer to a question because you didn't hear the question in the first place and didn't feel like asking what it was (like "what does you mother look like?" "a cat")
55. [ ] Told someone you were the wrong age because you seriously forgot how old you were
56. [ ] Looked into an overhead purposefully while it was on
57. [x]Got up early and got ready for school/work, then realized that you didn't have school/work that day
58. [x] Forgot your own phone number
59. [x] Have tripped on a cord after someone told you to watch out for it
60. [x] Have ever laughed at a joke that no one else thought was funny

Running total: 41

61. [ ] Done the Macarena to the electric slide or vice versa
62. [ ] said funner and then had someone make fun of you for it
63. [x] Have repeated yourself at least twice in the same sentence
64. [x] Brought up an inside joke with the wrong person
65. [x] Didn't do the backside of an assignment because you thought that there wasn't one because you had already looked and forgot that there was another side
66. [x] Did more work than you had to on an assignment because you didn't read the directions
67. [x] Corrected someone's grammar/pronunciation then figured out that you were the one that was wrong
68. [x] Put something in a special place so that you would remember where it was, then forgot where you put it
69. [x] Put ice in your drink after the glass was full of liquid and had it splash out
70. [x] Told a lie then forgot what it was that you had said and got caught

Running total: 49

71. [ ] When wearing goggles, you pulled them away from your face and let go so that they would come back and snap you in the face
72. [x] Forgot to make sure that the lamp was off before you replaced the light bulb
73. [ ] Ran into a door jam
74. [x] Told someone that you hardly ever do stupid things, then immediately did/said something stupid
75. [x] Told someone to watch out for something, then you were the one that ran into it
76. [ ] Have purposely licked playground sand
77. [ ] Have purposely and repeatedly flicked yourself with a rubber band
78. [x] Gotten so hyper that someone actually thought you were drunk when you weren't
79. [x] Have been so hyper you actually scared people
80. [ ] Put duct tape on your body then pulled it off to see if it would hurt

Running total: 54

81. [ ] put duct tape in your hair / someone elses hair and pulled it off.
82. [x] Put a clothes pin/hair clip on your lip, figured out that it hurt, then did it again
83. [x] Wondered why men's dress shirts have a loop on the back
84. [x] Made up a code name for someone so that you could talk about them to someone else and no one else would know who you were talking about
85. [x] Have gotten a hairbrush stuck in your hair
86. [x] Used the straw to blow the straw wrapper at someone
87. [ ] Shaved your tongue because you thought your taste buds looked funny
88. [ ] When at a restaurant, you used your spoon to fling stuff at people
89. [ ] Have flung forks at people in a restaurant
90. [ ] Tripped and made the waiter drop the food.

Running total: 59

91. [ ] As you are writing, you move your head back and forth with your pen/pencil
92. [ ] Have drawn finger puppets on your fingers then named them
93. [x] Have wrapped someone in a roll of toilet paper
94. [x] Have used somebody else's toothbrush without even realizing it wasn't yours
95. [x] Have started telling a story and forget what you were talking about or what happened in the story
96. [x] Read a book but during the book you weren’t even paying attention
97. [ ] You have spelled your own name wrong before
98. [x] When lying in bed you look for pictures in the texture of the ceiling
99. [x] Have used your calculator as a form of communication in a class
100. [ ] Have popped a balloon in your mouth

Total: 65


"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:30 AM

tell me, please. 

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:22 AM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I think i can post bullshit on my blog and it wouldn't even matter. HAH! 
what's the point of having this THING anyway.. when i update it, no one reads it. when i don't EVERYONE complains.

like WTFH people!

ngeh, i'm just ranting. not all happy-happy-joy-joy at the moment. this sucks. fully. 

and then you have people telling you, everything will be alright, its not going to be F'ing alright.. why are you so deluded into thinking so? what has convinced you so much that you think everything will be okay? i want to know. 

Yes, i know they say everything happens for a reason but the reason NEVER reveals itself immediately it takes its own sweet time, tormenting you in the proses, until everything makes sense when all is revealed. 

And to hell with you people who take one look at a blog and INSTANTLY critisize, JUDGING the person, thinking badly of them, when they just so happen to update their stupid blog when they're in a bad mood. do YOU really think you're that fantastic? do you think YOUR life is so bloody perfect? huh?! If you do then i want to meet you, show you what really happens. think its so perfect, i'll prove you wrong. idiots.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:59 PM

Monday, March 16, 2009
nothing better to do?
You are required to answer ALL the following questions.
Tag 16 people and repost it with the title:
I've done --- out of the 132 stupid things.

99/132 means you scored a distinction for doing stupid things!
(although that's not really an achievement hahaha)

Level 1
() Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol


Level 2
(x) Fallen In Love with a Non-Living Thing
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
() Been Fired
() Been In A Fist Fight


Level 3
(x) Played with fire
(x) Played with guns - alex's :D HAHAHAHA!
(x) Played with people's feeling
() Played till you drop unconscious


Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
() Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 11

Level 5
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
() Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 13

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding/Skiing
(x) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook 
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 16

Level 7
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 20

Level 8
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
() Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 24

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 29

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
() Felt An Earthquake
(x) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 31

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 35

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 38

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 41

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
() Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 45

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 50

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 55

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made a Prank Phone Call
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 59

Level 18
() Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 62

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
() Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
() Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 65

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge
() Swore at the teacher, in front of them
() Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 67

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 71

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 75

Level 24
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House.
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 79

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
(x) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes- Well DUHHHHHHHHHHHH
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail

SO FAR: 81

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
() Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 85

Level 27
(x) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
() Made A Porn Video
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 88

Level 28
() Mooned/Flashed Someone
() Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
() French Braided Someones Hair
() Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(x) Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 91

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 96

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 100

Level 32
() Been shot at/or at gunpoint
() Had sex in the rain
() Flattened someones tires
() Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Damn, 100/132. OH CRAP.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:33 AM

Monday, March 2, 2009
Even Bigger News!!!!!
Okay, so since i toyed with all of you in the previous post.. i'll just get straight to the point.

my dad got cold feet this time round! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!


see, i did get cold feet when he asked me to stay in Puncak Prima in jan, only because there was a guy staying there.. some of you are probably going " WTF mel!?" and others would understand..

SOOOOOO, just now my dad and i had dinner in that Vietnamese restaurant in the Hartamas Shopping Mall -it was just so so [ Vietnam Kitchen is wayy better :D], walked from the condo to the mall and back.. back to the whole cold feet part, it was extremely quiet, almost deserted so dad being a dad was worried as hell as to how i would go out in the evenings - alone - and the horrible things that could happen so he decided to pull me back home.. 

and here i sit now, in my bed, telling you why my "independent stay" was sooo short.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:19 PM

Sunday, March 1, 2009
should i be crying?

or laughing?

or jumping so high till i touch the sky?

or be emo, cutting myself in the process?

wanna hear the biggest news this year?



are you really ready?

okay, i'll tell you..

not yet..

soon (:

remember, patience is a virtue..

teee heeeee :D i love doing this, manipulating you, feeding your curiousity..

this is SOOOO much fun!

okay lahh, its been long enough, yes?


i think this is long enough..

i'm getting kicked out from my dad's place.

shocking, no?

for those of you who believe i actually got kicked out, HAHAHAHA!!!!!!

okay, so here's the thing, i didn't get kicked out, i'm moving out.. just me. to a room in a condo near college, the land lady is there for the weekdays, so it isn't toooo bad.. dad's idea though, wants me to get a feeel of what its gonna be like next year, although i will be completely  a l o n e  next year, with no family to go back to on the weekends. OH WELL! i will survive :D

i love you people,



"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

2:50 PM

`mel. the one and only . i turn 18 on the 130609, don't forget ;) - p.s. if you're reading this you either love me or hate me so much that you just have to read the crap i post, but if you've found it, good for you. enjoy :)

Craves : more money ;p


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